But here we are, the first day of school and I am EXCITED to send them back.
But no, I haven't decided that I don't like to be around my kids.
My oldest is in 4th grade this year (how did that even happen?!), and this kid lives for school. We do a lot at home, and I know I *could* meet his needs here if I wanted. But he loves school. He loves the constant challenge that it brings. He loves competing with peers. Talking over ideas with other kids in his class. He's what some would have in years past called a nerd, but in the coolest possible way. He just loves learning. All. The. Time. School is such a positive experience for him, and one that I am happy to give him.
My second is in 3rd grade and has spent the summer writing letters to friends and making lists of things he wants to do to get ready for school and once school starts. He's my organizer. He loves the predictability of the school day. That lunch happens at a certain time, that gym happens on a certain day, that he knows exactly how long he'll be doing any given thing and can plan ahead for days at a time to be mentally prepared for what is next. When he's home, I think I drive him a little crazy that we don't eat lunch at exactly the same time each day. Or that I can't tell him exactly what we'll be doing 2 Friday's from now. He craves structure and routine beyond what is possible while at home. At least not without making me completely crazy trying to keep up with the plan and no room for adjustment.
My 3rd is in 1st grade and has been asking me how many days until she goes back for the last 3 weeks. She can't wait to see her best friend, to get to know her new teacher, to pick out what clothes she will wear each day and plan out how she wants me to do her hair. She loves to learn and is agreeable and adjusts to pretty much any situation. I know she will thrive wherever she is planted, but school brings her joy, so it brings me joy.
It's not that I can't stand my kids, or that I could never homeschool, or that I need *me* time (though don't get me wrong, I do need that sometimes too). But that I'm helping them grow by sending them to school, I'm giving them experiences and challenges that they love. And we are lucky to have a fantastic school that provides them with these things. 5 years ago I was scared to start our public school journey and didn't know what to expect, but what I have seen has gone beyond any expectations I could have hoped for. My kids are loved, and learning and thriving with teachers and staff who truly love what they do and want to help my kids succeed, not fit a mold.
And the 2 littles and I had fun grocery shopping and wandering the aisles of Target